Sometimes, when I’m alone with my thoughts, I find myself posing questions I am sure most parents don’t ask themselves. Here is my list.
- Was this my fault?
- Does God not love him?
- Will he be a “telethon baby” – living in a hospital forever?
- Will we be able to parent him?
- Will he ever be able to say my name?
- Will he ever hear me sing?
- What more will we need to handle in his lifetime?
- What more will he have to face in his lifetime?
- Is he in pain?
- Is he happy?
- Will he live with us into adulthood?
- How will we handle his aggression when he’s 14? 21? 35?
- Will we be mentally and emotionally able to handle him as his needs increase?
- Will I ever sleep peacefully again?
- Will I ever not feel that inexplicable hole in my heart?
- How will we know if he’s ok in school when he can’t tell us?
- Will he ever learn to read and write?
- How can we provide him with the best education based on all of his issues?
- Will we be able to afford all the equipment he needs?
- Will he be able to work?
- Will we have enough financially to keep supporting him?
- Will he have enough financially to live on without us?
- Will people ever not look at him as broken?
- Will he ever be independent?
- What will “being independent” look like for him?
- What is our role in his life?
- What is the meaning of his life?
- What is his purpose in this world?
- What will his legacy be?
- Will family and friends continue to visit him when he’s older and no longer “cute”?
- Will he be loved by others after we’re gone?
- Will we outlive him?
What questions do you ask yourself that you are sure most parents don’t?